Almost a month since my loss

Well it has almost been a month since I lost my dad. I am still having flashbacks of that morning. I thought I was ready to share my (new life) unfortunately my ugly depression & anxiety has reared it's ugly head. I have lost my usefulness; each morning I would make him breakfast, weekdays I would put my niece & nephew on the bus, do his laundry, run his errands, take him to the doctor, make his lunch & dinner, put his medication in the case and so much more. And now... nothing well next to nothing. This is Life as I know it. 

I am still very VERY emotional. I will cry just thinking about him. 

I don't know when I will be back. I am hoping to soon. 

What gives me peace is he is in Heaven with our Saviour Jesus Christ & has reunited with  his beloved wife.💕 I can only imagine how happy she was to see him when she met him at the gates with Jesus on her arm. They are together again! And as a Christian I know I will see both of them again. God is Good!! 

My first post

In Loving Memory of My Dad

This is my amazing, hardheaded, bulletproof loving dad! I miss him so much my chest hurts. He passed away on last week after short illness.

Today my brother, sister & I, along with his 7 grandchildren whom he adored said our final goodbyes.

When  Dad was first admitted in the hospital they told us he would not leave the hospital alive OR he would go straight to hospice care. I was not going to allow that to happen. Because it didn't

In this new blog of mine I am hoping I can express my grief and share some of the best times we shared while he was home before he passed. And try to use another outlet to heal. 

This is my Life as I know it,

Martha